Friday seems sucks

Starting to crash dis website again somehow..maybe got no friend to talk to thats y have to express myself thru webworld.. today is friday.. feeling confused this few days, hate myself dreaming in my sleep where I seems to remember when I woke up. As what they said if you remember what u dreamt of, you are not resting at all coz ur brain is active the whole night. Well I took half day off, calling it sick coz I really dont feel like working at all. My brain so tired n I slept d whole afternoon. Waking up to the same world again.



Tonight is windy outside. Brought myself to balcony and been sitting here for hours and started blogging. I looked out and last year about this time I must be doing overtime at work and leave office at 930pm. Although I always complain bout my job but I loved it somehow compare to now. I can do whatever I want.. shopping, watching movies at cinema, kbox with friends, reading magazines..seeing lots singaporean enjoying their weekends at hubs..stressful work but at least I got my own time and doing something I loves. Why cant I have both.. job that I loves and have my own time.. frankly I laughs more last time than now.. no one makes me laugh..makes me smile anymore.. what happened at the past they were part of the memories. Thinking I can settle down here but somehow I cant.. may God leads me through and guiding me the next step. Big Bless to me!



One more month, my boss going to review my job.. 6mths probation! damn! what should I do now? Im lost and confused.. accept the confirmation or what? Bonus only be giving out in January..should I wait? Im thinking dis weekend spend sometime packing and thinking to leave before chinese new year. Coming back this country for holiday maybe but not for living. One word TORTURING. Well.. not sure got the chance to explore australia before leaves.. really depends on my colleague though although I am ready to go! One step at the time!